first and last

Rarely are we gifted with foresight in times of war, our choices guided only by the strength of our arms, the speed of our bullets, the bravery and cowardice of our guesswork.

Sometimes I think of you as the enemy who only happened to be on the other side, our bond tended only by my makeshift hostility, your open declaration against alliances.

There is nothing more violent than our silences. Yours is land fenced and barbed, intent upon the defense of the territory. Mine is bare desert, pierced with the treachery of mines.

Rarely are we gifted with foresight in times of war. In the clarity of now, and with the aid of flimsy metaphors, I think I understand, a little, why.

*photo is from the movie adaptation of Michael Ondaatje’s The English Patient

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20 thoughts on “first and last

  1. Maybe that was the intent. A simple objective. To alienate not by distance, but by detachment, not by animosity but by indifference. That his was prison, and your's was a nothingness. Both equally sharp, and devastating.But neither being aware of the other.

  2. Victor (Greg),They say all is fair in love and war. Sometimes, it's hard to tell which one is which, is it not?To win the war, one must know thy enemy well. Understand him (wow, did I just give the enemy a gender?). Sometimes, we realize the enemy is only doing what he must, the same way you do what you must."Sometimes I think of you as the enemy who only happened to be on the other side…"Perhaps if things had turned out differently… but we will never know now, will we?Kane

  3. i thank u Victor. this made me realise an important thing:"Sometimes I think of you as the enemy who only happened to be on the other side, our bond tended only by my makeshift hostility, your open declaration against alliances."it is sad though. that he happens to be on the opposing side. but after i understood it, i wonder if i should do something…

  4. War used to be the trade of kings. We have different intentions for war, it can be for peace or claiming what is not ours.but this is sad. "Sometimes I think of you as the enemy who only happened to be on the other side, our bond tended only by my makeshift hostility, your open declaration against alliances."

  5. Nyl, I had to Google "Julia Fordham's Invisible War." Hehe. I believe we are talking about the same thing, though I would cringe to utter, or croon, "Want to go away // I still love you."Manech, sabi ni Kundera, ang magaan daw ang mahirap pasanin. 🙂

  6. Perhaps if things had turned out differently… but we will never know now, will we?Yes, Kane. This is the first and the last. This post did not hit the target and there is no use to give it another shot.

  7. Glentot, this is one of those times that I have to exorcise my emo-ness. Blechh.Desole Boy, I think you should attack at once. And soon. Your next strategy would depend on the enemy's reaction. Let me know how this goes with you. I must at least live vicariously.

  8. for Deleuze, a war-machine is creativity operating without regard to the State. it is appropriated in the form of war, but precautions must be taken by the State in its appropriation lest it consume the State in its destructive-creative singularity. in this way, a war-machine shares something with nomads, who also operate outside of the State. (yes Deleuzeans, condemn me now.) i could blab on with this fascinating anarchic/post-Marxist ramble, but I'd recommend Anti-Oedipus if you're really interested. Deleuze says it much better than I ever could.

  9. I'm afraid my Sun Tzu is very limited, Peter. Maybe for future reference, I should remember, for the next time I pass by the bookshop.my-so-called-quest, I am bowled over by what you said. "We have different intentions for war, it can be for peace or claiming what is not ours.." Yes. Otherwise, if something is ours by default, or effortlessly, we wouldn't have to clean our rifles.

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